Book Review: Nobody's Lost (Rescue Me Saga #5) by Kallypso Masters

Ryder Wilson returned from serving multiple deployments but can't leave the hell of combat behind him. Frustrated and ashamed of his inability to function in the world as well as the veterans he served with, he retreated, choosing to engage only with those he trusted. When retired Master Sergeant Adam Montague sends him on a mission to protect his sister from some unknown danger, Ryder's days of hiding out may be over. Can he fulfill his mission without failing again?
Megan Gallagher has two big-brother Marines bent on protecting her from the evils of the world, but she's tougher than they think. When her older brother sends Ryder, one of his recon Marines, to her doorstep in the wee hours one night following a break-in, she realizes he needs rescuing more than she does. A friendship forms quickly, but unexpected passions run hot and complicate her resolve never to have a romantic relationship, much less marriage. So why are her body and her heart betraying her every time he comes near? Can these two wounded people lower their defenses long enough to allow love to grow?


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Nobody's Lost is the fifth installment of the Rescue Me Sage. This is, unexpectedly, Ryder and Megan's story.  Ryder served along side Adam Montague in Fallujah.  During a mission they had come under attack and lost a soldier. Just like the rest of his team, Ryder felt responsible. When he returned to the States he found a place to hide out from the world.  He continued to suffer from nightmares and was overwhelmed in big cities. All that changed one night when Adam called Ryder and asked him to check on his sister, Megan.

When Ryder arrived at Megan's home he found out that she had been robbed while she was out.  Her computer was stolen. The house had excellent security and someone figured out how to break it.  It became Ryder's missiong to protect Megan.  Soon it became Megan's mission to save Ryder.

During their time together they begin a relationship of trust and friendship.  They are both mutually attracted to each other.  It's Megan who takes the first step and implies she wants more.  Ryder has a difficult time excepting that he's good enough for Megan because he suffers from PTSD.  However he's not the only suffering.

"You aren't the only one here who's damaged goods, Ryder.  Know what? I can't have babies.  I chose the coward's way out rather than suffer, so certain I would never meet someone I wanted to make babies with."

Megan leaves Ryder. "But if you need to hide out here alone, so be it." After she leaves Ryder decides he can no longer live his life hiding and chooses to come to terms with his issues.  

"My life had come subsistent living,  I kept people at arm's length or farther and shunned joy..and love.  I met someone I think ould help become whole again.  My prayer is that she will accept my imperfections."
  
In the end we discover what happened to Megan's computer and why it was taken. Ryder find his way home and Megan finally loses what she has been waiting for so long to give.  

I really enjoyed this story. I found myself crying and wanting to hug Ryder. Ryder had gone off the grid and he thought he was lost.  What he didn't know was that his friends were never far, although in a scary, intrusive way.  Megan also was dealing with her inadequacies but had the courage to go after what she wanted.  At the we find two strong individuals who are stronger together. Although we expect plenty of BDSM in Kallypso Master's books I appreciated how it played a very small part in this story. Nobody's Lost was centered around healing and new beginning.  

"The two spouts represent our separate lives and the handle our joining together as one." -Nobody's Lost by Kallypso Masters.